Depression VS Anxiety

Most times, people have both but I don't have depression. Only have had friends suffering from it. So, this is my opinion from having a very severe case of Social Anxiety. What do you think is harder to manage?

Buying Alcohol -Panic Attack

Current Mood: Proud


Yesterday was a mixture of terror and accomplishments by having a panic attack and not letting it ruin my day. When I have a full blown attack, I feel as if my heart is going to jump out of my chest and explode, it's painful. While the rest of body, from fingers to toes, feels numb and light as if I'm a feather. The numbness and uncomfortable feelings makes me constantly move, thumping my leg to moving my hands constantly. Then we have the uncontrollable crying, where I can't hold it back no matter how much I want to. And I had one yesterday over buying beer and chicken. 

Silent Lover

Current Mood: Depressed


I am open to sharing my past and thoughts, but not trusting people. I keep them at a distance. I always have. Even best friends that I had when I was in junior high and elementary, I kept them afar. I don't know how to be close to people. 

Hosting

 Current Mood: Silly

Sleep overs and parties would seem to be easier at my place because that's a safe zone, right? However, I feel more stressed out when people are over. I worry so much about them having fun, I don't have any fun at all. Much rather be a guest than host something at my house. 

Trip to Arby's

Current Mood: Anxious;  

  -- On a scale of 1-10: 3.

I was excited for today, to get out of the house and do something. I rarely go outside, unless it's to take my dog out. Going to go hang out with Ron, we decide to grab something to eat at Arby's and I love the place. 

The Meaning behind the Name

Current Mood: Sleepy


I've gotten a lot of questions about where I got the name "TrappedKitten" and tons of jokes about it. I usually just make up random stories for fun. Sometimes involving saving kittens or being trapped by chains and handcuffs. I've had the name for over a year, maybe it's time to talk about the reasoning behind it.

Podcasts & Livestreams

Current Mood: Calm
All day my mind has been wrapped around a podcast I was suppose to do with my group of friends. It ended up getting canceled, and I'd be lieing if I said that I wasn't happy about it. Has nothing to do with the actual people, I love them and they have always been sweet to me. But knowing that it will be recorded and others will listen to it freaks me out. Stage fright.

Blogging with Social Phobia

Current Mood: Anxious; 
   on a scale of 1-10: 4.


I always feel awkward blogging and tend to delete a lot of blogs if I re-read them. I tend to worry about what other's will think of my thoughts and feelings; if they will understand. At first it feels wonderful to let it all out but after I hit the publish button is when I begin to get slightly panicky. Will they troll and make fun of me? Will they think I'm stupid for being a scaredy-cat? What if they hate who I am? What if they don't take me seriously? All these things eat away until I either force myself into distractions until I forget I even blogged or delete it. I rarely will keep up my blogs, but this time I will keep them here. For better or worse. 

What is Social Anxiety?

"Social anxiety is the fear of social situations and the interaction with other people that can automatically bring on feelings of self-consciousness, judgment, evaluation, and criticism. Put another way, social anxiety is the fear and anxiety of being judged and evaluated negatively by other people, leading to feelings of inadequacy, embarrassment, humiliation, and depression. If a person usually becomes anxious in social situations, but seems fine when they are alone, then "social anxiety" may be the problem.