Old friends

Everyone changes and grows. We learn to talk about things differently and grow from situations. People that have known us from when we were younger  might not recognize us now a days. How do I feel when I talk to people that knew when I was younger?

I want to cry.

I have a very hard time opening up to anyone. Unless you knew me when I had no walls. Which includes people that knew me when I was 16 or younger. After that age, I grew with walls that could never break. And I let only glimpses of people see. They could never see my thoughts, my opinions, or how much i cared. 

I don't like meeting new people.

This isn't like my normal posts, where I talk about SUBJECTS that bother me. This is a post how I feel currently. More like a blog. And the title refers to how I'm feeling currently. I will still talk about subjects and past events that have shaped me, but this is something I'm feeling right now. 

Update

As you can tell from my last blog that I was having a very hard time. But now, I feel better than ever. I feel more alive and have such a courage... that no one could break. They could try to kill me with their words, but I'd still float up into the sky. Let me explain how I've been. 

I need a break

Current Mood: Pathetic;
Hello! This isn't going to be a very positive blog post, I'm depressed. It feels like all the progress I've been making is gone and I took a mile backwards. I guess I wasn't able to handle it like I thought I could. 

Let's fight together!

Sorry, I would have posted this up on here earlier but have been having  a lot of trouble the past few days. 

Sleeping

Current Mood: tired
It always takes me at least an hour to fall asleep on normal days. I tend to over think what happened in the day or just think way too much. The only way I fall asleep is if I'm making up beautiful fantasy stories. However, when I'm worried about something, I'll be lucky if I fall asleep at all.

Being Judged, Trolled & Panic Attacks

Current Mood: Sad
Last night was one of the worst nights I've had in a long time. I didn't expect to be judged by someone that I always liked. Sure, we all judge people but when it's in a very negative way it hurts. The same thing for being trolled, when someone just wants to make you feel awful. Both of these will give me an instant panic attack. 

How I deal with Anxiety

We all have our own ways of dealing with the pain. Two of mine are through gaming and cosplay. I go through a short discussion about them both.