Another update!

This post is going to be a bit sloppy, I'm super tired but have had a lot on my mind lately. I will probably re-write this and put in more detail for 1upyourlive.com Which is where I now post anxiety related stuff. This blog is probably going to just hide away seeing as I write there now for my issues and to help others like myself.

Helping others

I like to give my thoughts on helping others. Especially if you are trying to help someone that are emotional. This is how I like to approach things. Sure, I make mistakes sometimes and forget this. We all do! I know that if someone has a problem with me, this is how I want them to talk to me. Gently!

Opening Up

Today has been a nervous day for me. Sometimes there won't be any reason and I'll just be anxious all day. Other times I don't want to say what is making me nervous. Usually because I don't want to upset others or make them feel bad.

Awkward talk at church

We don't have a car, meaning my family and I. So we take the bus to places and haven't been able to go to our normal church in a very long time. We were able to borrow a car and make it this sunday ad got there early.

I hate plans.

This is a blog about making plans with friends, whether they are close or new ones.

Drunk on halloween

Hey, guys!  this is a rather happy post. I have a lot of blogs i want to write, which will be personal and maybe sad but not this one. I mostly feel like typing this one because I'm in a good mood. So here it is!

At first I was a bit nervous about halloween, mostly because everyone wanted me to stream. I havent streamed in a long time, i use to do them a lot with spencer. Now spencer is here along with kodi, and with our drinks! I rarely stream sober. Mostly because ill talk myself out of it. And when I drink, i dont care what others think of me. I want to be like that all the time. To not care what others think. So what if i embarrass myself? So what if I say something people hate? That shouldn't make me sad when someone dislikes what i do. When i drink, it doesn't matter.

I had a freakin' blast with spencer and Kodi. We joked a lot about perverted things and talked with others. It felt amazing. To not care what i say. I loved it! I want to slowly learn to keep this. To care less what other's think.

I also had some good conversation with my LoL chat which made me... feel... strong, loved, and confident. Thank you.

Convention Nerves

I haven't posted in awhile and it's because of the anime convention here in Utah. I have been so busy that I've been unable to post and my nerves are going mad. Especially this week, I took on too much work and not much time to get it done. However, the convention is tomorrow and my heart hurts.